tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-66531282368422642962009-10-05T00:26:42.118-07:00Are you tired of what you have created in your life. Do you feel dead? Are you appalled by what is going on in this world? Wake Up People!HereNowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06234164583340345776noreply@blogger.comBlogger40125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6653128236842264296.post-23257156225579594752009-08-06T11:03:00.000-07:002009-08-06T11:04:30.979-07:00

All the anger I had in me was because things were not going my way. How I thought they should go. I became angry at everyone and everything in existence. I became angry at all the unfairness and suffering that was going on, and all the people that did not see it or give a shit. I became angry at the egotistical and then the weak for not standing up. I hated this existence.I thought by separating

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Original starting point of separation.why the world is so unfair and there is so much abuse to ourselfs and others and nature?why this is still going on with humans that we fight and kill each other after sooo many life times, after so many examples in history of what power and greed do , and we still do it? And we still do and allow it?------------------The answer is --- Life is fucked up for

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This whole thing that I am doing "judging" myselfis simply "comparison" shit.As I look out at the world or in my thoughts, I see that I pit myself against myself! lolWell I believe that All I see and think is separate from me so then I compare myself to it as in where do I fit in to what I see. Am I better than what I see or less than what I see/think.This is what the tree of life said to me.And

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wow, cool experience yesterday. it was like a purging as I allowed myself to be angry and did not stop it, as it unfolded to many areas of what I have been doing with self judgment of the "right thing to do" mind construct.today I just feel, hm HERE with me and it is okay.I can see that what ever I do needs not to have a right or wrong attached to it and I can just be me. Thou I "knew" this, i

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Consciousness had probably be the sliest mental creation that has ever existed. Not only does it consider itself quite justified but together with global consciousness (called the unconscious) is able to direct anything that we participate ourselves in.Today I have a few interesting facts to share with you which I gathered through hearing human beings' conversations here on earth and even

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From Desteni ForumAdamEveThe SnakeThe Fruit of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evilwho spite who?Who will not see inspite of what this fruit foretell?Acts of spite -- what have we done to ourselves?-----------------------Within this 'context' of the Snake, Adam and Eve - the Snake represent the Spite already existent as/in Adam and Eve - wherein Adam and Eve eat the fruit, taken from the Snake

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Common Sense wrote: When a partner turn the cold shoulderwho spite who?and what is the partner actually already preparing to justify? The one turning the cold-shoulder is only spiting themselves - as they're already preparing to justify the 'reason' / 'the why' for acting within the cold-shoulder manipulation - justifying their act within spite as the cold-shoulder manipulation through

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From Desteni ForumSpitefulness is a deliberate act - within which the being act in deliberate spite towards another within the deliberate intention to harm / break-down / inferiorize - the being within this act of spitefulness believing that they're harming / breaking-down / inferiorizing another - when their world will turn 180-degrees upon themselves as their world will show the spite they

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I am reporting about yesterday. It was a wierd day in that everything seemed to be in a daze. Things like I would get in the car and then wonder why I was in the car, I would forget what I was doing and why LOL, I had errands to run and it was very difficult to get them done. I talked to other people and asked them if they felt "spacy" and they said yes. I even went into fear at times like

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The Second Coming;Jesus as the Practical SaviorWhat would Jesus Do?Does not Jesus represent the son of God, did he not say you shall be like me and greater. Did he not come to say that we are all the sons of God.What would Jesus do?He showed us that he can feed the people. Does that not mean we should feed each other one and equal?What is the second coming of Jesus, is that not us?In practical

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It never occurred to me that when I joined the Desteni Forum over a year ago that this would be a life time experience…I was lost and confused with the state that existence is in, I did not know what our purpose was, and why there was so much suffering, and there was suppose to be a God that loved us and created us. It didn’t make sense…It took me over a year that I would realize that Desteni is

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Existence is missing The respect of admission to self dishonesty that have become a revolution.We all live in fear and fall to despair as we hide behind our lies and enslave existence into separation and not a nation, Of all One and Equal but all one in weakness….We do not stand up for another, but run to take coverPretending to be glorified as we fight another’s war,When in our hearts we know

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I am starting to see that most all our dishonesty can be seen in our starting point of communicationWhen we want to communicate with another, or even when we do not want to communicate with another.This to me has been the practical part of what we are doing.There is also self communication, when we talk to ourselfs Like try to figure out something or are going around and around in our head with

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I did not feel like editing and spell check.Yesterday Sept 10High day(for lack of better word)High day seems to mean when I have alot of energy, I post alot on the forums etc,I talk alot, I want to express through words what I am thinking.It seems if I do not get out my thoughts now, they drive me crazyIt also feels good to tell people what I know on the forum.... thou It might be anego booster,

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Oh my...How I use to curse the bodyHow I use to "blame" it for my problemsHow I wanted it to look differentHow I was mad at it for hurting and causing me painHow it wanted to keep eating How I blamed it for not getting the "love" of my lifeOh myMy body, the one thing that kept me in the physical that I cursed so much and blamed so much.The one thing that can offer me

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I had a good realization the other day.I was reading Venos Structural Resonance and doing SF on comparison. Meaning that we compare ourselves to others by thinking we are either better than another in someway or less than another in someway.I also was talking about Astrology with a friend and he said that I have this comparison thing in my first house. So very strong influence. And also my tree

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value and importance/worth= purposeI was digging around with the purpose thing againas I wanted to understand it.Whats is the purpose of purpose !So this is how that conversation went.I notice that all my thoughts seem to have the starting point of apurpose.I felt like giving up purpose was giving up life. So if I let go of purpose I let go of everything I ever thought I was here for."Purpose" If

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Yesterday I was very frustrated. So I started writing it out. It turned into a self pity thing as I was writing. Then I start asking myself questions as this works really well for me. So this is part of the way the process went.This is me trying to figuar it out. I am not posting the whole thing cause it was just a pity party.....See I dont know if it the guit that is the problem or that this is

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Why I am not Dead I think that was when she called me with the suicide threat at my work. I did not come home after those people took me to my friend’s house. So now she wanted me to come home and say good by to her because she took pills to die. Well like I said when I go home she was fine. The next event I remember was the time my Dad and brother were coming out this way from Ohio to visit. My

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