I forgive myself for being angry at MYSELF.

I see that I have been having back chat anger at others and myself. Though I did not see it as anger until this afternoon as I just sat in bed feeling defeated by everything. I was in despair and then I saw that I had not forgiven myself for being angry at me.
All the projections of anger at others and the world – the way it is as unjust and unfair I have had my whole life. But I am seeing that it is me that has to change these accepted and allowed believe within myself. The true anger is at Me. The anger that I believed I am not good enough in the eyes of others where I will have back chat constantly arguing with people in my mind! Mostly defending myself for some opinion/point of view, or many different things.
I have not forgiven myself that I am a fuck up- that I am part of this mess. I actually think that I should be more superior than others and this is the secret anger I have at myself- that I am really not superior to anything! Lol So I have been secretly tying to find a way to be superior in my mind. The mind looking at ways to think to make me special. Then I know I am doing this and then I go into self pity at my lack of standing up to this- when what it really is – is that I have not forgive myself for being angry at ME. At judging me, at comparing ME. To something I perceive that I should be greater to or equal to something I perceive as superior
I FORGIVE MYSELF!- I am not perfect- I forgive myself for thinking that I have to be that- even to the point of thinking I should not think that! Lol fuck man.
Forgiving myself on believes I thought I had to be. I am doing this first without the statement that I have accepted and allowed because I am still blaming me because I am accepting and allowing it. So I am just going to forgive myself for not being what I thought I should be.
I forgive myself for not being perfect
I forgive myself for being mediocre
I forgive myself for not being beautiful and handsome looking
I forgive myself that I am addicted to energy thoughts of good and bad
I forgive myself that I am not standing up to the mind
I forgive myself that I am not perfect and I forgive myself that I think I want to be perfect thus causing me great misery.
I forgive myself that I am accepted and allowing myself to think I need to be better than others
I forgive myself that I think that there is some kind of spiritual reward for being better than others in thought.
I forgive myself for being angry at Me for not being perfect.
I AM DONE With this Self Anger!
Within the anger I go into self pity that I am not doing “it” right.
Doing what right?
Fucking everything.
Lol
I forgive myself for wanting to be a super human.
I forgive myself for comparing and judging myself to an idea of a super human.
These are all the thing I have “admired” in another and believed “qualities” I did not have.
Thus constant comparison to others as how I “should” be.
Thus never living HERE in and as the Physical- but always in judgment in my mind.
I forgive myself for wanting to be better than others
I let go of ALL these judgments against myself and others.
I am tired of wanting to be right and better and not living with ME.
I am tired of always thinking I need to fulfill some imaginary dream of better as constant self judgment.
I am tired of judging myself for not doing something good enough thus causing fear to do that thing.
I want to enjoy the process of ME I want to trust. I want to Live.
I want to stop looking to others to tell me what to do in fear that I need others to tell me what to do. In fear that I am not alive – not here. Not good enough to know what to do.
I want to trust ME- I want to Love Me without comparison. In loving me I mean Love Life as We are the vehicle of Life. I want to Love Life as I would wish to be loved. Love thy neighbor as Life- Animals, planet, people.
I forgive myself that I am angry at me- I forgive myself in humbleness of the belief of better than

17. What does it mean to be a slave to consciousness?

Consciousness had probably be the sliest mental creation that has ever existed. Not only does it consider itself quite justified but together with global consciousness (called the unconscious) is able to direct anything that we participate ourselves in.

Today I have a few interesting facts to share with you which I gathered through hearing human beings' conversations here on earth and even communicating to them from the dimensions (considering they are consciousness) and what they have told me concerning who they are. We are pretty damn happy with our lives because our lives work. The fact that many children are being molested and the animal kingdom destroyed means nothing. We wash our hands of this. Secondly I was told that the entire world cannot take responsibility for each others creations because ‘we' did not contribute to these events. Each one standing looking only at his or her world as it appears, not taking into consideration what we contribute refractionally, energetically and consciously. Thirdly I was made aware of how far you will stretch the imagination when it comes to imagining that all is actually okay in this world. This statement of ‘all is actually okay in this world' coming from human beings' who' lives work for them and is not directly affected by the outer world outside which experience the consequences of consciousness manifestations.

The reason why I tell you about this is because I ‘speak' to many beings every day, perhaps you're not consciously aware when a being is sitting next to you talking to you because you've never experienced it before. I sit next to you (and so do millions of beings assisting here in 3D everyday) and I chat to your mind to see where we (as the dimensions) are able to assist you, giving insight or creating awareness.

When humans come up with justifications about separation and their apparent innocence that is where enslavement to consciousness comes from. The inability (or so you perceive) to actually realize that when you stand in oneness as we all do we share responsibility for everything in this world. We are one because in essence we have the exact same starting point within existence, we were created in equality and we shall all see each other returned as that whether you return to your understanding now or when you're dead.

So when people understand nothing about what is happening in front of their faces then we call it enslavement to consciousness. Consciousness keeps you trapped in one singular mind set, which is incorporated by beliefs, feelings, emotions, wants and needs which doesn't allow human beings to be clear on where this world currently finds itself and how this world's experience got to where it is today.

As long as you claim to be incapable of releasing yourself from consciousness then you are its slave. Consciousness to give you but a few examples plays out in the following ways as statements of who you are as consciousness: “But I cannot do this.” “It is not my fault!” “I feel something yet I cannot act or stand up to what is happening.” “No ways I love that person too much, please don't ask me to give up my thoughts or feelings!” Those are just a few examples of enslavement, when all you are able to handle is what you've already allowed.

Allowing yourself to only be limited by particular applications – enslavement, when you consider yourself limited you are enslaved. When you see yourself as not responsible – enslavement, when you say: “Oh but I can't or I won't” – enslavement. When you prescribe to particular laws about how to think, and experience who you are – enslaved.

Only you as who you really are is able to decide who and what you are to be, nothing limits you except consciousness. Consciousness also keeps you practicing certain application as I have mentioned to be able to feed all systems globally. Your participation in this world without standing as awareness is enslavement. When you are caught up in words, feelings, thoughts, believes, expectations and you will live according to these things –enslavement. Not understanding within awareness your own creations and how you came to be, how you direct your life and why – enslavement. Practically I understand that to be aware of what is happening and acting on what it is you have come to understand is not always easy.

As we support you we are aware that being enslaved in the first place was not man's desire for himself yet due to what unfolded when we came into existence, this is now the reality we all participate in. However, to justify that nothing is able be done because: “Oh well I have my life” is just not going to get us through this. Realising that everything man made constitutes conscious creation therefore is directing and controls you tells you how easy enslavement occurs.


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