Showing posts with label self improvement. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self improvement. Show all posts

Friday, September 30, 2011

My visit to the Desteni Farm


A little about me - I am 58 years old. My job experience have been:
8 years radiologist technician
30 years waitress (I preferred waitress to hospital work - as hospital exploits people for money.)
And in-between waitress, I had a couple of small businesses and other odd jobs.
I am now in College and work part time. 

After my first year on the Desteni forum I went to stay with the group at the Desteni farm in South Africa. I stayed for 3 months. It was a great experience. I am from the USA and have never been that far from home. Some people were concerned about this trip - Going somewhere were when you haven’t met someone except on the Internet type of fear. Through my year of interaction with them and all the assistance they gave others and me free of charge (which I though was amazing) I knew there was nothing to fear, I only had an excitement to travel that far and meet these wonderful people.
When I got there, they are no different than you and me - we had group dinners where we took turn cooking for everyone. There were many animals, dogs, cats, horses, chickens and a large garden. I got a warm welcome as was let to be for a few days from the long trip. After that I got into the grove and found things to assist with around the farm. There are always many projects going on. At night we would watch a movie in the living room or just do our own thing. In my mind I wondered about being face to face with Bernard and the Dimensions, what would it be like to meet a dimensional person? And Bernard? There was a fear of that, only because I knew they understood deception, and I didn’t know how it would be to be around someone like that, funny how we trip out in our minds. I though it would be intimidating - but that was just me. I don’t know how to explain it except… I felt safe with them, even if self dishonesty was exposed, because I knew they do not take things personally or accuse anyone, just point out things that will assist one to drop illusions of the mind. So this was really cool. All in all, it was a cool experience to experience myself with a group of people who have dedicated themselves to make a difference - people who want to bring in a new paradigm - first by exposing the abuse of how we are living and treating ourselves and others - so we my see how we created this within the world. And then we learn how to live as a new paradigm,(Equal Money) one that treats all equally taking into account of what is best and supportive for all of life.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Finding my Desteni and A New Way

I joined the Desteni forum in September 13, 2007, I am 58yrs old. Before that I had pretty much had it with life. I lived a radical non-conformist life, but always in the back of my mind I wanted to know why we are here and why are we so abusive to each other. I could not believe we were still killing each other in wars. When Bush JR got elected, that is when all hope of humans doing anything for the good of life went out the door for me, and I started to give up within myself.
Way before that, some 30yrs ago I was also on a “spiritual” search, because I thought there had to be more than this abusiveness in the world and I wanted to know how to be happy and help others if I could find the “way” or truth. Interesting some 25 years later I ran into Desteni who is now 4yrs old since their website. So while going down into depression right before I started with Desteni, I was trying to keep my head above water, I was still searching on the Internet for something to make sense to me. A friend of mine, emailed me one of Sunettes videos. I was intrigued and watched more.
I found myself on the forum, a newbie, asking questions, as I never heard anyone talk or say the things the way they did. I wanted to try and learn about self-forgiveness and self-honesty. I did lots of research, watching videos and reading posts. They also started talking about an equal money system. Of course I loved the idea, it would solve all the fucked up shit going on. People could be happy! ALL people would treat other and themselves as equals. I always thought that this is way it should be.
When I was doing Advaita and other such light and love things, I felt something was missing. Why should I find happiness only for myself and not care about others. I just didn’t seem right. This is the point Desteni address where no one else does. Heaven is in our head - earth and Us, you and me are HERE. Thus to bring the idea of heaven from the head to HERE, physical, is the only way to actually LIVE it. Thus I have been learning to stop participating in the mind that is fueled with emotions that cause us to live in fear and separation of each other and life. The tools Desteni uses are simple- yet SO EFFECTIVE if done with sincerity. They are writing self to freedom. Self Honesty, Self forgiveness, Breath count, and corrective action.
The cool thing with Desteni - is that we are a group from all parts of the world who do want to bring heaven to earth for all of Us here. And we support each other within this to make a change in ourselves and then the world.

Some of my favorites when I first started with Desteni:
Osho
Why Changing the world Will not Last (Though this is not a video - this was very important for me because I was “hoping” for the Golden Age to come, and I saw that nothing is coming until we change ourselves)
http://desteni.co.za/Osho/Osho5.htm

Matrix 8 on Secret of Self Support
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdZTar_b8Fw

Matrix 9 on Secret of Self Direction
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VLgCqJCX ... relatedMat

Anonymous: On the Death of Me Series
Playlist http://www.youtube.com/playlist?p=PL748006A4A67494CC

Emotions and the Law of One
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iH-0XJ0ZIqo

The WORLD has gone MAD!!!! - DesteniProductions
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gdnl4YAsYoY

The Secret of Humans: Playlist http://www.youtube.com/playlist?p=PLE4EA69FEF9F88CF4

Audrey Hepburn on Friends and Family 1/2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LplxHbHx2mo

Audrey Hepburn Family and Friends 2/2 - How do I support ME?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=haY0Z7ZjX70

Earth Youself - BirthYourself
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcYBRxaAPOQ