Wednesday, September 28, 2011

You are taught not to question God- for GODs sake!

 I just had a conversation with --- and wow - she does not agree with the equal money system - I cant believe it - that people do not want world change - they just want self change…. I do not know exactly what her resistance to is was -- oh - yea to focus on what is wrong with the world - makes it so - So to focus on people who are suffering because they don’t have enough money to eat - is what is creating it. She said it is pushing against it. I feel that avoiding seeing what is HERE as our world manifestation is the resistance and she actually got angry saying I DO NOT WATCH THE NEWS. She did admit that if it was her in a position of not enough money she might think differently. But she said if it was her reality then she would deal with it… Oh boy - this is hard to deal with - meaning I cant convince them that this is what accepting and allowing is. To allow another to have abuse… wow.. Its okay if it isn’t happing to them - wow. . I find myself wanting her to experience something - to see this.. Like when the banking system affects her - then she will get mad at the corruptiveness and enslavement values of our world.

However - I must remember that I once thought this way as well. I thought life was all about me and my happiness- and I did not realize that what I “thought” my happiness was, was programmed into me by my parents and there parents before them - and through television movies and commercials - they told me what happiness was - what I should strive for. And if you bold it down - it all come to HAVING ENOUGH MONEY TO DO THESE THINGS. Even getting married requires money! SO WE PAY TO BE ALIVE. What I didn’t understand at the time was- that I was accepting and allowing this along with the rest of the world. We were duped - granted that  - but who allowed ourself to be dubbed? We did.
I thought that if I was one of those not starving - that God or some force “valued” me in some way over others. This is what we were taught. I couldn’t understand a “God” who allowed this - but hey - then you are taught not to question GOD- for Gods sake! …

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a world to exist where abuse is seen as normal for growth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I don’t watch the news and see the corruption and abuse going on in the world -then that means that I am not responsible for it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am only responsible for myself and responsible for my own happiness - and thus within this I forgive myself that I have not seen that happiness in a “world” would include the Whole world - not half of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry at another when they do not see or care that the world is fucked up in fear that then they support the fuckedness, when I fact I was one of those people. And thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to want to see a fucked up world - so I would not have to look at my responsibility within this. Which was to say as long as abuse is not happening to me it is okay - and within this believe, that I have actually supported abuse and thus have contributed to it.

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