Sunday, February 27, 2011

Friday, February 25, 2011

I forgive myself for being angry at MYSELF.

I see that I have been having back chat anger at others and myself. Though I did not see it as anger until this afternoon as I just sat in bed feeling defeated by everything. I was in despair and then I saw that I had not forgiven myself for being angry at me.
All the projections of anger at others and the world – the way it is as unjust and unfair I have had my whole life. But I am seeing that it is me that has to change these accepted and allowed believe within myself. The true anger is at Me. The anger that I believed I am not good enough in the eyes of others where I will have back chat constantly arguing with people in my mind! Mostly defending myself for some opinion/point of view, or many different things.
I have not forgiven myself that I am a fuck up- that I am part of this mess. I actually think that I should be more superior than others and this is the secret anger I have at myself- that I am really not superior to anything! Lol So I have been secretly tying to find a way to be superior in my mind. The mind looking at ways to think to make me special. Then I know I am doing this and then I go into self pity at my lack of standing up to this- when what it really is – is that I have not forgive myself for being angry at ME. At judging me, at comparing ME. To something I perceive that I should be greater to or equal to something I perceive as superior
I FORGIVE MYSELF!- I am not perfect- I forgive myself for thinking that I have to be that- even to the point of thinking I should not think that! Lol fuck man.
Forgiving myself on believes I thought I had to be. I am doing this first without the statement that I have accepted and allowed because I am still blaming me because I am accepting and allowing it. So I am just going to forgive myself for not being what I thought I should be.
I forgive myself for not being perfect
I forgive myself for being mediocre
I forgive myself for not being beautiful and handsome looking
I forgive myself that I am addicted to energy thoughts of good and bad
I forgive myself that I am not standing up to the mind
I forgive myself that I am not perfect and I forgive myself that I think I want to be perfect thus causing me great misery.
I forgive myself that I am accepted and allowing myself to think I need to be better than others
I forgive myself that I think that there is some kind of spiritual reward for being better than others in thought.
I forgive myself for being angry at Me for not being perfect.
I AM DONE With this Self Anger!
Within the anger I go into self pity that I am not doing “it” right.
Doing what right?
Fucking everything.
I forgive myself for wanting to be a super human.
I forgive myself for comparing and judging myself to an idea of a super human.
These are all the thing I have “admired” in another and believed “qualities” I did not have.
Thus constant comparison to others as how I “should” be.
Thus never living HERE in and as the Physical- but always in judgment in my mind.
I forgive myself for wanting to be better than others
I let go of ALL these judgments against myself and others.
I am tired of wanting to be right and better and not living with ME.
I am tired of always thinking I need to fulfill some imaginary dream of better as constant self judgment.
I am tired of judging myself for not doing something good enough thus causing fear to do that thing.
I want to enjoy the process of ME I want to trust. I want to Live.
I want to stop looking to others to tell me what to do in fear that I need others to tell me what to do. In fear that I am not alive – not here. Not good enough to know what to do.
I want to trust ME- I want to Love Me without comparison. In loving me I mean Love Life as We are the vehicle of Life. I want to Love Life as I would wish to be loved. Love thy neighbor as Life- Animals, planet, people.
I forgive myself that I am angry at me- I forgive myself in humbleness of the belief of better than

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Bible Studies The Money Changers

Good will would be to change the money system. Those that can do not.

When Jesus went to town and became angry at the money changers.
It is still the same. We have not changed. And all those who call themselves Christians are part of the money scams/ Jesus himself did not like churches, yet now there is a Pope who clams to know what Jesus taught and claims to been anointed by God. Yet he will turn a blind eye to his priests that are molesting children and do not take criminal action, but send them off to another church which is actually then he himself acting in criminal ways.
It is the money changers that are the ones who make the laws to protect themselves and their criminal acts. Yet we are just as much to blame because we allow it to happen. We gave our power away to authority- because we did not want responsibility. So guess what – we have it every where There is always someone who is making the rules of how we are to live. And these rules only benefit the few and cause great stress and suffering to most.
When we go to school- we learn that wars are patriotic- we learn that we are expected to kill others for our country! But who is telling us this? Who wants us to fight? And all sides are praying to “God” for there side to win. Lol And we call this sane behavior. This is just a believe system that we have accepted as true. God does not have sides – God is the principle that brings “beliefs” into reality for us to experience. We are in control of the believes we allow ourselfs to believe.
It certainly does not have to be this way. There are enough resources for all to live a dignified life. People say there is not enough fuel and food for everyone. This is not so. We have amazing technology that is being repressed because it would give all free energy. There are cars that can run on water, and there are devices that can create electricity from your own yard. Yet the powers that be- are in power because they have the money and that they say we need this money to survive – so they control how much we get to stay in power.
No wonder Jesus did not like the money changers. They are against equal life for All- They suppress life for others and we go along with it...
We do not need a priest to tell us what Jesus was trying to show us. Do unto other as you would
want done unto you. You want dignity – give dignity to others.
Equal Money System is the answer if you dare to follow Jesus.

Free yourself from the Money engery we have accepted and allowed >

Self Forgiveness Energy = Money